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(Cont…) Finding a way to thrive in my body, and ultimately in my whole being arrived as divine guidance. I scoured through books which led me to Mantak Chia’s work in Taoism, and ultimately led me to Tao Ta***ic Arts for Women. I realized that I have owned this book for several years, written by one of the teachers that was going to be a catalyst in me thriving. Minke de Vos and Shashi Sollina have virtually and practically led me on a journey of self discovery. Pushed my edges. Cheered me on. And loved all the parts of me that emerged.
It all started in the jungles of Bali with 22 women….

(Cont…) Healing my body looked like a clinical experiment in the bedroom. I was told to use a dilator, and I must say that idea was tossed pretty quickly. My doctor said, “If you don’t use it, you lose it”, so I entered one of the most uns*xy times of my intimate life. I was desperate to find a way through the devastation my body experienced, for my marriage, and for myself. Luckily, my husband was the most patient loving partner in this endeavour.
Healing didn’t just mean healing my body though. I also needed to look at and heal my s*xual past, because this specific cancer was actually HPV related. I needed to look at my shame, my relationship to my own body, and the deep wounding in my cells…

(Cont…..) I wobbled my way through losing parts of myself that were never going to be the same again. It was my own version of the story of Innana journeying into the underworld.. Menopause was just a small part of that. Shaving my hair off another small insignificant thing that I found some empowerment in.
Humour was my medicine when it became so incredibly intense because essentially, my most vulnerable sacred body parts had been burned up in a fire, and I had to figure out how I’d heal, much less thrive in this new body of mine.
In the bigger picture, what emerged was amazement and awe of what I am capable of. The strength of my body and spirit, the strength of my deep connections, and this powerful wise woman I discovered in myself.

(Cont….) My journey started with uncertainty. Feeling fear pierce through my heart, this health crisis wasn’t something I ever thought I’d experience knowing my family’s health history. We have a strong genetic line from a physical health perspective. My family, my ancestors have been through some of the most traumatic experiences, and had to push along just to survive. There was no time, opportunity, or resources to heal the wounds that have imprinted on the cells of my loved ones. With this particular cancer having been in my re**um, I knew it had to do with my own sense of safety, security, s€xulaity, and ultimately about healing my roots; my ancestral line.

Almost 2 years ago, shocked and in deep despair, I learned that I was going to have to tackle a scary health challenge. I got a call from a specialist saying that I’d need chemotherapy and radiation. He didn’t even say cancer, but obviously that’s what it was.
In my search to deal with this from all angles, considering my psyche, energy, physicality, emotions, and spirituality, some beautiful angels came to support and love me which I am eternally grateful for.
One healing session that is etched into me, is a session with where she saw a moth covering my entire face.
A moth? Why a moth?
I started looking into this. A moth is attracted to light, it is a transformational symbol.
Little did I know, I was about to experience what would be a dissolution of who I knew myself to be, and awaken into more love than I could ever imagine… follow the next few posts to learn more about my journey.